The things I miss, the things I experienced, the things I am still processing

I fell in love with Tanzania - and her people.
-Chapati
-Daladalas
-Elowi
-Chipsimaiyi
-Everything matches
-DARUSO
-Reading The Hobbit on the shore of the Indian Ocean
-Handmade clothing
-Cold showers - really cold showers!
-Mwanza, Solomon, and Mama Naomi
-Safaris - both kinds ;)
-Swedish meatballs on my birthday
-Freshest fruits I've ever eaten
-Steven Ndosi
I had my first drink, and liked it.
I uncovered the ability to be angry for myself.
I, we, maintained a relationship from the other side of the world
I enjoyed worshipping in solitude.
I got to know some of the most amazing women I've ever encountered.
I watched (from a great distance) my sisters grow into even more amazing young women.
I learned what it meant to be totally vulnerable.
I pondered my actions and their repercussions more than I ever have.
I prayed, intentionally, seeking guidance and calm and clear sight.
I doubted everything I've ever believed.
I feared for my life.
I got my head x-rayed.
I started to run again - a joyful experience.
I dreamed about my future, our future.
I experienced true hospitality.
I understood what 'pay-it-forward' means.
I walked without a limp.

Rainer Maria Rilke

God speaks to each of us as he makes us
Then walks with us silently out of the night
These words we dimly hear:
You, sent out beyond your recall,
Go to the limits of your longing.
Embody me.
Flare up like flame
And make big shadows I can move in.
Let everything happen to you: beauty and terror.
Just keep going. No feeling is final.
Don't let youself lose me.
Nearby is the country they call life.
You will know it by its seriousness.
Give me your hand.

--Rainer Maria Rilke
Love Poems to God